The Shell of Emptiness....

I often wonder about the shell of a snail...

It carries this empty shell on its back, which happens to be its entire world.

If it is not carrying its empty world it retreats into it,

thus shutting the rest of the universe outside.

Does it know what its doing? Is it happy living such a life?

Is its existence better than most?

Is it ok to carry one's solitude and loneliness on their being, around them, enveloped by it.

Most people do strange things to rid themselves of this shell of emptiness.

Can they? In the end...I feel we all have this shell within us.

Even when we are with loved ones, we can see we are not alone,

but there comes a moment of clarity when we realize ...everything is flimsy..... its all temporary...

love, friendship, enmity.... all the relationships we have, have a limitation....

and in the end its just us....

we are responsible for our happiness and only we can light a candle in the darkness

of our hearts and create a semblance of joy...and make peace with out solitude.

We...like the shell of the snail...are destined to carry our solitude and loneliness in our selves.....

the only difference is the snail has no choice...we as beings can shrink the size of it and become comfortable with our shells of solitary confinements by making peace with them and

acknowledging them as well as giving it its due importance thus accepting its existence and

also recognizing its presence....ergo as we identify our burden....it becomes easier to carry ... we may not get rid of it but we walk a little taller..knowing it exists and always will...we came alone...we leave alone....what we have inside....will also be what we have to comprehend....alone!!!

Gave little but got much much more.....

Giving brings joy is what I have heard a great deal of times,

yet when I actually gave was when I felt the joy and peace steal over me.

I did not give money or any thing material...

I gave my time, to the needy.

Little souls that look up to you with such faith and trust.

Their eyes follow you when you enter their space.

Their tails wag.

Their tongues hang out and they lick you over and over.

Such pure love, such unselfish love.

Brought tears to my eyes.

It was when one lay beside me and relaxed enough to sleep, was when

my heart soared and I felt it would burst with joy.

I sat still, my hand moving gently over his fragile body,

and a smile on my face.

There are very few words that can come close to describe my state of heart and mind.

I was at peace. The long road of unsettledness and the feeling of something is amiss,

all dissipated and all that I came away with was a quite and peace.

The world made a little more sense than usual.

I gave a few hours but got back ten times more.....

Need Serenity....

The more I meet the corporate world,

the more I crave Serenity of a simple existence.

The more one has the more one wants, so everyone knows,

but when you are faced with it then it hits home.

I was home, cooked, read had an easy life, but always felt

guilty for not working and earning my keep in life....

made me felt useless...

Then I start working and feel empowered...and important.

I got up, rushed and ran and clucked and played the part...

Yet, it felt not enough, it feels like a vital part is still missing...

I wonder....isn't eating,praying, loving and living not enough?

Usher the next Year in.....with snow

As we stood under the inky black sky...looking up at the glittering lights
of the world around us...we saw the tiny little fluffs of heaven fall on our faces....
Such hush I have never felt, until the snowflakes touched my face,
the world fell away....the snow and me were one.
To most people living in the cold, it seems ludicrious that someone may want to
actually go out in a blizzard and take a walk...but I did.
I walked and walked...letting myself be completely engulfed with the white bliss...
No words came to mind and yet my whole being was calm and words soothing and
of feelings pored into my whole being.
It was a day I shall never forget, for I stood under the open skies...from a black
sea of darkness fell white, pure bliss and love and joy....
I spread out my arms, turned up my face to the sky and loved...every moment of the
cold snow flakes kissing my cheeks, and settling on my eyelids......telling me
it will all be good from now on.
Which ever path I take will be the path which was meant to be, I will walk
and the universe will be with me wherever I go.....