days.....like leaves on a tree....

Days could be like leaves, turning and changing.
Some flying away while some clinging on….

Where does each go…I don’t know?
Why does it go? I don’t know!

But I know that each one is special.
It’s different. Just like each snow flake is different.

One should be able to appreciate that we still have days left.
Like a few leaves left on a tree.
It is spring in our lives today but you never know….
Autumn might just be around the corner.
Today you feel your life is in full bloom but the next time you check,
It’s all gone.
It could happen that today you feel dejected that all the leaves of your life
Are falling apart but you never know, a new bud might just be hesitantly trying…..to bloom.

Never take your life for granted.
It’s never too late to take care of your tree of life.
Nurture it. Love it. Take care of.
As they say….
You only live once so make sure it’s blooming good.

My baby....my Einstein.... died

Yes, we finally had to do the most inhumane thing on earth.
We had to put my Einstein to sleep.
He was being moved around and he bit someone else.
No one wanted him anymore and I could not keep him.

So we did the worst thing possible.
We put him to sleep.
I just pray that his soul goes to Heaven,
and if he takes birth again may God let him take birth as my
son.

Einstein....died June 19th 2007 11.30 am.

How I lost my baby(Einstein).

It was like any other night,
we came back home from an evening out.
Fed and walked Einstein and got ready for bed.
As my husband told him "its bed time" and rolled his ball with his foot,
something triggered Einstein off. He went for my husband's foot and
tore off a certain amount of skin.

There was blood ....so much of blood.
I called 911 and the paramedics came. (Thank God for America).

My husband was taken to the emergency room where he got 25 stiches.

We got home at 5 am and tried to sleep.
Einstein walked around us , not understanding what had happened.

I called his Vet who then suggested a few options of which at the time
putting him to sleep forever was what she suggested was best.

So we put him in the pethotel and scheduled the procedure with a heavy heart.
I cried and cried. That was to take place 3 days later.

I was upset and the day of the procedure we went to pick him up to take to the vet.

There was a girl that works for the pethotel who asked if she could adopt Einstein.
We were aghast. Over joyed! Astonished!! Elated!!

My baby had been given a chance to live.
I grabbed it.
I gave her all his paper work and information.
Signed a written page that I am giving my baby to her from now on.
She was sweet and said I could meet him anytime I liked.

I cant even begin to say how happy I am and once again my faith in God is
renewed!!
I love my dog and the fate that was chosen was the worst.
I felt I had let him down in so many ways.

Though now I know he will be taken care of and loved like he deserved.

But I lost him. He will no more take me for walks.
Cuddle up to me in bed.
Lick my face or feet.
My home is empty and a part of my heart that belongs to him always....will be empty too.

I pray to God he lives a long, healthy and happy life.

things to do....

I went to the doctor for a routine check up after a blood work and she says...you are a diabetic....
now it took a while to sink but once it sunk in...I was shaking so hard I couldnt stop!

Anyway, that got me thinking that life so short and mine just got a little shorter...but there is so much to do still. I always thought I had years to come.

So, I started making a mental list of things I want to do before I die...here it is...the ones on the top of mind right now....

1. Have a Baby (preferably with my husband)
2. Buy a Jaguar
3. See atleast one city in each continent
4. Spend time with a famous personality
5. Go bungee jumping
5. Learn scuba diving
6. Leave a leagacy (if only a small one)
7. Do social service

I just hope that God gives me enough time to realize most of the above so that when the time comes to lay down I feel there is little I have not done or need to do.

where did she go?

Did she become a tree and has her arms spread out to the skies...
Did she become a fish like she always thought she was...
or did she become a bird and is scaling the heights of the open skies?

If she could hear me I would tell her I love her,
I would tell her she is still in my memories.
I did not misplace her memories like a bunch of old keys.
I have kept her in my heart.
She is a part of me as I will always be a part of her

Where ever she is...I would tell her I feel her.
Her gentle hands on my head.
Her dazzling smile lighting up my darkest moments.

Her soft and gentle voice, always there,
beckoning me...encouraging me to go on.
Her quite strength emboldening me to face my fears.
To fight the battle of life.

When I walk down a picturisque path...
I look up in the sky,
I look at the blue hills,
and the golden sunlight shinning or
dew kissed trees.

Those times I feel the closest to her.
She is a part of nature.
She is the wind, the gentle wind.
She is the warmth of the sun.
She is the pure sound of laughter of a child.
She is in the clear reflections of the lake.
She is everywhere ....everywhre where God is.

Because I know she and God are one now.
She is part of him as he was always a part of her.

I know where she went...
no where.
She is a part of me now...more than she ever was.
She is in me...in my heart....in my memories.....
alive...smiling....happy and without pain.....forever!!!